[Short Story] I See You Now


What the FUCK ARE THOSE?? What are those things?? What are they? You know the ones I mean. God, fuck. How did you know they sound like that? Are we not supposed to know about this? Why does it makes that sudden, shifting sound when they realize?

Then they become that larger thing and it becomes so beautiful and intimate. Is that what they offer? That fucking uncanny mixture of sound and feeling, though. That sudden, subtle shift. In that precise moment that they realize you’ve noticed them behind you, so they re-arrange everything to make sure they’re behind you again as you try to see them.

Should I even be talking about them? God, that feeling of a sudden, uncanny lurch that makes me sick just trying to describe it. Why does it make me feel that way, every time? Can they TELL we’re looking? Is THAT what causes it??

Why does it make that EXACT sound when their bodies move and how do you capture it so perfectly, Like the whole lens of reality changes focus all of a sudden. So they make that sound, that fast, hollow metal sound as everything subtly shifts around you.

THAT right there!! holy fucking hell. What ARE those things! Holy hell, god fucking shit, the whole focus of reality shifts when they make that sound. How can that be? What does it mean? Were they always right there?? Who else knows about this?

Don’t pretend you don’t know what I’m talking about. They make it really fucking hard to nail it down and express it, but you know. “That look”. That dirty fucking stretched-out sound. That moment everything around you comes into alignment when they make that sound. as if they’re right behind you and watching closely, suddenly becoming aware that you’ve noticed them. That feeling!! That weird, janky-assed sound AND feeling. God fucking help me.

What ARE they? That SOUND! That FEELING, don’t try to tell me you don’t know what I’m getting at, I’m so fucking uncomfortable. It’s so strange, yet familiar. It’s slippery as FUCK but you’ve nailed it in several places, you know what it sounds like and how it makes you feel, it’s uncanny as fuck. Like there’s a few of them nearby, who might suddenly notice… Like right now for example.

I’ve seen that sort of thing from you before, you must know something about it. You perfectly captured the distinct sound of it. That strange shadow magic that they do in order to stay ahead of your every movement.

That distinctive sound it makes in that moment that everything changes, and the feeling it evokes is just inexpressible. Like they’re all just standing there behind you, watching. Then everything suddenly shifts. Like all of reality suddenly realigns itself in that precise moment, because you’ve noticed them.

Like the world becomes a distorted reflection that suddenly twists around in that exact moment, when they make that sound. That weird, hollow metallic sound. Like everything is stretching. What does this fit into? Is this a part of anything? This specific moment in time that it seems to signify. Like it’s all so perfectly framed, and in sudden shifting alignment with some unseen force.

What the FUCK is that? Where does it come from? It’s so impossible to capture. The more I try to describe it the more it just comes apart on me. Like they don’t want to be described? You know that weird dirty-ass uncomfortable sound they make! Whatever the fuck YOU are, maybe you’re the same fucking things for all I know.

They were so easy to miss before, around the edges of your vision. Always just behind me to either side no matter where I looked. That fucking sound captures it so perfectly though! I’m going to be sick.

I didn’t know! I didn’t know there was anybody else who knew about this weird fucking shit, or how it sounds when they move. God, fucking shit. If only I’d never seen all of this. If only I didn’t know what they sound like, because of you!

What ARE they? How do you know they sound like that when they move? What the fuck!?? I feel so dirty. WHY do they sound like that with their every little movement, every little change in perspective. How do you know enough about that effect to make this? Is that just how their bodies work?? WHAT ARE THEY??

How did you know it sounds like that! Nobody ever would have made this if they didn’t know about that weird, dirty fucking uncomfortable-ass “just around the corner” feeling. Or that it sounds exactly like all of that from moment to moment, like they’ve only just noticed you looking.

What the fuck IS that?? That extremely fucking uncanny, stretched out whatever-it-is that the sound apparently signifies. WHAT ARE THEY?? That look, that sound! How do you know they make that sound?? It’s EXACTLY like that! FUCK!

God help me my skin crawls. Fucking shit help me it’s melting, can they tell we’re looking?? Why does that make a difference?? Why does the change in perspective suddenly sound like that?? They’re watching me write this.

Like the whole universe shifted in perspective at that exact moment. Like everything re-arranges itself along a different axis if you happen to look that way, just so they can hide from you. Holy hell am I uncomfortable. I see you now, whatever you are. That fucking sound you make, it always makes me feel so weird and gross.

Aren’t they looking at us right now? They can read this, can’t they? It’s so fucking strange, why are they allowing me to write this? My mind is coming apart. God damn, help fucking AaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWHAT ARE THOSE THINGS

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