Boy it’s tough to write this. I can’t really think of much besides Laura. The show must go on though, if I want to keep eating well and living indoors. That’s the banality of the system we live under. You have to keep working to live, no matter what you’re feeling.
As you can see I’ve finally got a rear view mirror on there. No more dodgy “glance over my shoulder” maneuver. It’s positioned right where it needs to be so I can see the road behind me when leaning forward. I’ve got it tightened up so it won’t budge from that position either.
Here’s the tail light module, with integrated turn signals. I had a little flasher powered by hearing aid batteries before, but this one is bigger, brighter and runs off the same rechargeable internal power bank as the wireless phone charging mount on the handlebars.
It has its own internal, single 18650 battery so it’ll keep working even if the power bank runs out mid-ride, I’ll only lose the phone charging function until it’s swapped with a fully charged power bank (I have a couple identical 4 cell power banks I use for all sorts of things, as a general “power storage unit”.)
Here’s the wireless control pad for the turn signals. It runs on a single CR2032 which sucks because it’s something I have to buy more of, but supposedly a single battery will power this thing for a year. That’s long enough that I don’t really mind the inconvenience.
You’ll notice there’s a mirror on the left but not the right. This is because I’m always in the bike lane on the right side of the road, so I only really need to be able to see what’s behind me on my left side. This leaves room on the right handlebar for the turn signal control pad, within easy reach of my thumb.
Anyway it’s real fuckin hard to give a shit about my hobbies right now, so forgive me if my posting frequency goes down for a while. It’s not that I don’t need that money, I do, I just can’t make myself do as much atm because I am fucking sad as shit and it feels like nothing matters anymore.
I expect it’ll pass but I kinda don’t want it to. It feels like it would be wrong to enjoy anything ever again in a world without Laura. I don’t mean to be a downer or to let personal stuff intrude into every article, I just don’t know how to avoid it.
Anyway keep watching this space I guess. I will try to keep putting out content. I don’t want to let you guys down, and I do need to eat, although I’ve been nauseous pretty much nonstop since yesterday.
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